I think, therefore I am crazy (Who is winning the game to kill people in Uganda)

I haven't posted in quite some time. In this post, I am just going to jot down some of my recent thoughts in bullet form.

- First, on a serious note, I would like the mourn the death of Sean Taylor. I don't mention the Redskins in this blog much for some reason (though I am obsessed), but the tragic shooting and passing of Sean Taylor came as quite a suprise to everyone. I know, I know, there are tragedies everywhere everyday. Taylor was just freakish though in his physical abilities. The perfect blend of speed and strength, he seemed indestructible. More tragic is that he was just turning around his life over the past year or two, which was before marked by constant trouble (arrests, etc.). He left behind an 18 month year old girl. Maybe one day he could have been in the Hall of Fame. Such a sad thing.

- It is December 1st, which I have decided is like my New Years. Any changes I want to make, I would like to start now, getting some momentum going into next year. I really had a lot of goals for this year, all of which failed miserably. It was not a great year spiritually, or in any other discipline, and I hope to turn that around next year. Here goes!

- The "i" key was broken on my keyboard and I just got it fixed. Lots of words have "i" in it. Having no "i"key is annoying.

- There aren't a lot of Einsteins. In my field, there are not a lot of Barths, or Calvins, or Boenhoffers. My question is, is this because these people were so special, or because almost everyone gives up trying to be something great. I feel like between ages 18-22 I hear a lot ambition on what people want to be. I feel like between 23-80 I see a lot of compromise and giving up. Am I not going to be Karl Barth because I will eventually give up wanting to be something great, or people I actually am not great. People need to learn to take risks. Life is not a cost-benefit analysis, it is a symphony, and nothing is beautiful about being mundane or scared.

- I am realizing (this is not an attack on anyone in particular) the kind of people I want to be around, and the kind of people I don't. I want to be around people who burn (see my facebook for the quote one this). I want to be around passionate people, who enjoy life. Not just the exciting things, but the things we have relegated as mundane and trite. Conversely, I do not want to be around those who are lazy, apathetic, bored or uninterested. I am tired of these people. I am tired of being around people who are dramatic, who cannot see outside themselves. I wanna be around people who have concerns for the world.

- I was going to make a post called "Who is Winning the Game to kill Uganda." I made it a subtitle because I think it attracts interest. I was watching the Republican debates the other day. I hate politics, and generally don't find them interesting (although now I find them becoming progressively more interesting). The format was people asking questions through youtube, some of which proved the stupidity of Americans (one guy dogmatically asked 4 times if he believed every word of the Bible, holing the Bible up to the screen (as if that is essential for office); another asked what they thought about the confederate flag)). First of all, why do we ask stupid questions like that. We are choosing someone to run our country, and impact billions around the world. Infuriatingly ignorant. Anyways, what was interesting and why I am writing about this is that all talk about the debate and analysis sounding similar to the sport talk I hear everyday. It was about who won, who came out looking good, who's argument beat the others. However, I heard no analysis on the actual issues. No one asked if the candidates arguments seemed morally right. There is no analysis on the actual impact these issues have. Instead, Huckabee looked good because he was the most humorous, and others looked bad because of their personal attacks on each other. Also, why do we only care about their views. What about their ability to reason, their intelligence, their bravery. Do you this a possibly terrorist attack on the World Trade center was an area of debate when Bush was running? No. We need to care more about the President's ability to tackle new issues that they will undoubtedly encounter. Instead, we use even the choosing of our President as another form (as if we need more) of entertainment. I can't wait to see who wins the game. In the meantime, as we have our fun, we are making a decision that effects the poor in our country and the poor in Uganda and the persecuted in Iraq. But its all a game, right?

- Sorry, that was kind of a post. I bought a new grinder and a new french press today. Woot. And a journal, which I hope to use so I can voice things I couldn't voice here.

- I am not sleeping tonight or Sunday night in preparation for a final.

- Going home has now not become something I long for. I like it here. I am not at all the same socially here as there, but that can be nice. Much more reflection and personal time.

- Lastly, I am tired of people questioning me moving to Boston. I keep hearing about how I should have stayed at Liberty. It makes sense. I was going to grad school for free, I had tons of friends I could hang out with, it was easier, and I would have been done possibly two years earlier. You know why it doesn't make sense? My post earlier. That involves no risk, no challenging myself, no growth. It is the easy path. I have never once here really asked if I am supposed to be here. I am not saying its wrong for other people to go to LTS or anything, but for me it isn't, and social, financial, and academic comforts were not going to tempt me from what I needed for God's path for me. The comforts of Egypt were a lot more tempting than the desert. I'm just saying.

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